I wrote stuff!

A lot has happened. But I'll start with this. I wrote a book. If you'd like to preview it, download it, or buy it you can here:

It's poetry. Kind of stream of consciousness. I'm not very good at poetry--I just write what is on my mind. So it's a lot of that. And stuff. And, well, I hope everyone is doing well! The last year was by far the hardest year of my life. But it's time to move on. I have changed, evolved, whatever you want to call it. I am a better person. I wouldn't take any of it back. Hopefully I can update this thing more often. I'm on Facebook a lot. I'm getting out and meeting people again. You've got to start somewhere. There are several things I have learned over this part year. One is you can't change anyone. You can't control anyone else. You can only control how you react to things. Another thing I learned is balance, balance, balance. And last, but not least, it is okay to take your time and just sit still and think sometimes. Anyway, I'm rambling. I missed everyone. How have you been?


Right. So I joined It's free, and the dating scene in Conyers doesn't really exist, so it's hard for me to meet people. I don't want to just randomly go into Atlanta by myself-- it makes me nervous, so I thought this would be safe and relatively pain-free. And, surprisingly, it has been. I'm meeting some nice, normal (or as normal as human beings can get) people, and having some funny conversations. It's nice to be talking to strangers again, and it's very nice to be writing again. Other than that, I have been putting in job applications like mad and trying to download my music onto the i-pod I got for Christmas. Not very exciting, but I have really good coffee and I feel productive and cozy. Plus I just got caught up on Rescue Me so I am basking in that. How is your week going?

We miss you hiss the lovecats

Okay, so....okay so. So what? I haven't been on here in like 2 years, and I can't think of a single thing to write. Really? Or is it just there's SO MUCH SHIT that it all wants to come out at once? *arches an eyebrow and waits, dramatically* Nope. I'm here because I missed you. I missed you in my life, you being a part of my life, and realize you are something that is as essential to me as breathing. So, I am back...begging your forgiveness for my long departure. Please, please, PLEASE forgive me and please, baby, can't it be like it used to be? I promise I'll treat you better. I won't take you for granted. We can make this world /shine/. This sober ginger's got a few card tricks left, and she can make you feel like magic. And I have changed....oh, how I have changed. But don't we all? Change is good. My father, Loki, would say that change is the key to survival, and yanno...I agree with him. And, yes, I did just say a Norse deity is my father. If you don't know I do random shiznit like that by now you must be new here, and in that case...hey, how are you? Want to go out and get a coffee? Let's get to know each other. Because I am lonely. So very very lonely. The curse of the see...I have all these voices in my head...but it's not like they talk to and comfort each other. I am still lonely. So, don't leave me out here by myself rambling. Pull out that folding chair, and talk to me. I may be poor as hell and a little bit older, but this cat can still purr... and I've got so many things to tell you...




Seriously.....I don't eat them very often but whenever I eat waffles or pancakes they make my blood sugar nuts. I'm talking like I'll have to take 7 or 8 extra shots to get it down. But today I got up and I wanted them really bad and they were sooooo good.

And I had TONS of syrup, bitches!

Tom Waits Tonight

Surprise!!@ BUTTSEX is never a good thing. Take my word on that. Everybody needs a little warning and time to prepare. Because if you don't it can be painful. Now, don't sit there and giggle behind your hands. I'm trying to look out for you. I've got your best interests at heart.
But nevermind that. I get to see Tom Waits in a few hours! I am way pumped too.

I love this man. And this is my favorite song by him:

Friday left me fumblin' with the blues
And it's hard to win when you always lose
Because the nightspots spend your spirit
Beat your head against the wall
Two dead ends and you've still got to choose

You know the bartenders
They all know my name
And they catch me when I'm pulling up lame
And I'm a pool-shooting-shimmy-shyster shaking my head
When I should be living clean instead

You know the ladies I've been seeing off and on
Well they spend your love and then they're gone
You can't be lovin' someone who is savage and cruel
Take your love and then they leave on out of town
No they do

Well now fallin' in love is such a breeze
But its standin' up that's so hard for me
I wanna squeeze you but I'm scared to death I'd break your back
You know your perfume
Well it won't let me be

You know the bartenders all know my name
And they catch me when I'm pulling up lame
And I'm a pool-shooting-shimmy-shyster shaking my head
When I should be living clean instead

Come on baby
Let your love light shine
Gotta bury me inside of your fire
Because your eyes are 'nough to blind me
You're like a-looking at the sun
You gotta whisper tell me I'm the one
Come on and whisper tell me I'm the one
Gotta whisper tell me I'm the one
Come on and whisper tell me I'm the one



Two Wolves

An old Cherokee chief was teaching his grandson about life...

"A fight is going on inside me," he said to the boy.  "It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves."

"One is evil - he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, self-doubt, and ego."

"The other is good - he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith."

"This same fight is going on inside you - and inside every other person, too."

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, "Which wolf will win?"

The old chief simply replied, "The one you feed."

Kittens Ahoy!!!

You knew this was coming!

So, I'm fostering some kittens that I got from mooneyshine . She found them and was trying to find them a home. They were pretty skittish and feral at first as far as being kind of scared of people and hissy. But who can blame the poor little things. So, I am fostering them now and I think we are probably going to keep two of them and try to find a home for the other one. So, if anyone on here is interested please let me know. I am also going to be fostering some more kittens for three weeks and I'll post their pictures up here too. It's kitten season! I don't know, I just really like being able to take them in and get them used to people. It makes me feel good to have that connection and it gives me something to do. I know I can't save every kitten I see but I can save these and I am doing what I can. Anyway, here are PICTURES of our babies!

*As I take care of these cats and go to Furkids I can't help but wince at the stereotype of the cat lady. You know, the lady who buys Cat Fancy and only feeds her cat from the table with a bib around it's neck and a sparkling collar and wears those horrendous cat t-shirts that are only okay for 12 year olds to wear. I am really scared of becoming this lady, but I think I will be okay as long as I keep my werewolves close to me and tell dirty jokes a lot. That way I can balance out my cat ladyness with my other weird habits. Hahaha!


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